| | Current Music: | Gavin Degraw-I don't wanna be | | Subject: | Back | | Time: | 01:04 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/smileys/blah.gif) bored |
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| I hate it here purely because I feel like the biggest blimp the moment I step off the plane. I especially hate the stick insects with their dyed hair and their tiny hot pants/heels combo. I hate the wannabe black teenagers. I hate how I have to watch what I eat here. I hate not having the freedom to walk out of my house anytime and grab a coffee/dim sum/duck rice. I hate how I keep thinking about my life in London.
I've been back for 4 days and its been pretty relaxing I guess. Finally watched 'The Incredibles' (I am Edna Mode, cute movie) and 'Alexander' (pile of crap, needed to pee throughout which wrecked my concentration)..caught up with gossip, had lots of coffee and have come to the conclusion that the ppl at Starbucks here can't make it for nuts (skinny Hazelnut latte comes out full fat cream milk with a tinge of hazelnut, no coffee). So I spend the rest of my waking moments playing with my dogs. Yes, I got 2 new babies. 3 month old female Rottweilers who don't get along too well with my boxer so I end up having to play with all 3 separately during the day and the terrier at night. (What a happening life I lead)
I guess I'm whining enough. Off to Hong Kong and Japan this Friday, hopefully I'll become a stick insect but I doubt it.
God it feels good to have internet again, I was starting to get withdrawal symptoms.
The silliest things right now make me happy. Like discovering Pilgrim was sold in this country! Which means we don't have to trek all the way to Copenhagen for some freaking cool jewellery.
Okay time to catch up on my surfing and tv watching. | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment   |
| | Current Music: | Joseph Arthur-Honey and the Moon | | Subject: | Bitch mode. | | Time: | 08:58 pm | | Current Mood: | blah |
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| I'm lazy, bored and in a melodramatic kind of mood. I haven't felt like this in a while. Irritable and listless. And its not even PMS man. Been shovelling down the lard like there is no tomorrow, stopped caring about calories and now I'm paying for it in the form of spare tyres ala Michelin man and Ms Piggy pork chop style legs. It's back home on Friday which will inevitably make me feel worse about my weight surrounded by stick insects and heat rash but its ok, that will all be compensated by endless hours of joy in front of the telly, cheap shopping and no more worrying about what to cook next. In other news, I've just heard some news from an excited flatmate. Seems like whilst the entire Bridget Jones population (ie. my flat) has trouble finding a man, some people find a prince. Literally. A prince. I need me one of those, which would go some way in funding a new handbag. The Chanel one. Thanks.
I'm going to continue ranting. Last night was a wasted night out. I mean I must as well have stayed at home and cut my toe nails and that would have been more fun. The club was absolute crap, it was such a random assortment of music. One minute feng tao, one minute rnb. By the time you got into the dancing mood, you had to stop. A failed attempt at classiness. Pangea wannabe. So anyway, so much drama but not funny ha-ha drama. So ended up in Chinatown adding on the calories as usual and well that was my night out.
I feel completely utterly blah right now. Haven't made a move on any of the remaining 3 essays, well if 160 words counts. Who the hell cares about Classical Social Theories. Like I really need it in life. I bloody hate this degree. It's useless. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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Memories of home. I look drunk. And my face is huge, round and red. Much like a ripe tomato. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I have to describe:
A situation which required you to be both 'tough' as well as 'diplomatic' - an occasion when you had to stand your ground and get your point across, while being tactful about someone else's point of view or feelings...*
A situation which required you to be both 'tenacious' and 'flexible' - an occasion when you repeatedly tried to get past some kind of obstacle but eventually had to find another way around it...*
A situation which required you to be 'well-organised' as well as 'detail-conscious' - an occasion when you had to deal with major competing demands on your time without losing sight of all the 'little things' each task involved...*
Someone. Anyone. Help me out here. Everything I have in mind sounds way too trivial for me to actually write on a job application.
This sucks.
*scratches head* | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| 50 cent- P.I.M.P
Jamelia-Superstar
Fatman Scoop-Be Faithful
Kevin Lyttle-Turn me on
Kelis-Milkshake
BEP-Where is the love
*wah*
Me wanna go party it up. I miss the whole anticipation, the waiting, the getting dressed together, running around the flat, 'do I look fat in this', pre-drinking.
I'm all nostalgic now. All I do in this country is eat and sleep. Repeat x10. And then stress about job apps, look at my computer screen and do nothing.
Let me hold you, girl caress my body you got me going crazy turn me on turn me on...
*wah* | | comments: Leave a comment |
| basics.
+name: Caryn
+best feature: Eyes
+first crush: Justin Hall. I was a complete embarassment and still cringe when I think about it.
+piercings: 5 ear piercings.
+boyfriend/girlfriend now : nope. totally single.
+# of times heart broken: Once.
.with the opposite sex.
+worst thing to say: you've got a tiny one.
+hearts i have broken: none
+# of girls i have kissed: don't swing that way
+what were you doing 15 mins ago: Chatting to someone I see 24/7 anyway
+what are you wearing now: Zip up, jeans and boots
+you shy or outgoing: Very shy. But no one seems to think so.
+sleep with stuffed animals: Hate stuffed animals.
+feature you notice first: Height
+looks/personality: Both definitely.
+tan or fair: tan
+would you ever date a friend: No way. Too awkward
.favorites.
+color : Black, dusty pink, hot red
+thing to do: watch movies, talk with my girlies, club
+ocean or pool: ocean
+favorite movie: Too many
+love or lust: Love to last.
+silver or gold: silver
+diamonds or pearls: diamonds
+showers or baths: showers
+food: sushi,indian curry,duck rice,fried chicken
+holiday: christmas
+animal: dogs
+drink: archers and lemonade, coke.
+perfume: Ralph
+cologne: Acqua di Gio and Issey Miyake
+fruit: Mangoes and grapes. oh and watermelons
+room in house: Bedroom
+type of music: hip hop, rnb and cheesy depressing love songs
+memory: spending quality time with friends and family and a man when I had one
+day of the week: Friday
+flower: lillies, tulips, roses
+month: December
+season: summer in England
+location for dates: Somewhere dark. good music. even better food. delicious cocktails.
.have you ever...?
+cried when someone died: yes
+drank alcohol: yes
+smoked: yes
+lied: yes
+fallen for your best friend: yes
+rejected someone: yes
+used someone: no
+been cheated on: yes
+cheated on someone: no
+done something you regret: yes
+been obsessive: yes
+could you live without the computer?: no
+trust others way too easily: sometimes
+gotten in a fight: yes
+been to new york?: yes
+been to florida?: yes
+california?: yes
+hawaii?: yes
+mexico?: no
+china?: no
+where would you love to travel to?: South Africa, Egypt, Brazil, Cuba
+whats your middle name?: Su Yin
+what are you scared of: death and heights
+do you believe in angels?: dont believe in god
+if i could see one person right now: parents
+i dream about: my last dream was about going clubbing.
.do you.
+play an instrument: yes
+like the taste of alcohol: yes
+go to church: nope
+have any secrets: yes
+like sarcasm: yea
+sing in the shower: nope
+cried because of someone saying something to you: yes
+color your hair :all the time
+flowers or candy: flowers
.who.
+makes you laugh the most?: my flatmates hands down
+makes you smile: everyone
+gives you a funny feeling when you see them: no one in particular..hmmm stalkee?
+do you have a "type" of person you go for?: yes definitely.
+want someone you don't have: yea its only natural
+are you lonely?: occassionally
+ever afraid you'll never marry?: sometimes
+do you want to get married: eventually
+do you want kids: yes
+red or blue?: red
+spring or fall?: fall
+santa or rudolph?: rudolph
+math or english?: english
+what are you going to do after you finish this survey?: work
+high school or college: college
+are you bored?: very
+how many buddies are on?: haven't opened AIM
+last movie you saw?: Love Actually
+last noise you heard?: music on my discman
+things you like in a girl/guy: intelligence, charm, honesty and genorosity
+what's on your mouse pad?: don't have one
+favorite magazine?: heat and elle
+worst feeling in the world?: rejection and failure
+what is the first thing you think when you wake up: cant i sleep some more
+chocolate or vanilla?: choc
+if you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? watch new movies all day every day
+are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous?: righty
+location: London
+college plans: 2nd year law
+are you always timely or always late?: timely
+like being around people: yea it can get lonely
in the last 48 hours, have you:
+cried: no
+bought something: lunch
+talked to someone: yes
+had a serious talk: no
+kissed someone: no
.final questions.
+i want: to be truly happy
+i wish: I could get my all my work done and graduate with a first class degree
+i love: spending time with my girlies.
+i miss: the comforts of home, my parents and Su.
+i fear: I will not get anywhere in life
+i wonder: if I can skip another EU class tomorrow. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | I've been a brat. I'm sorry. But sometimes I can't control my temper and thats bugging me. It flares up oh-so-often, more often than not, I've recently come to realise. Less than 24 hours and its bye bye home so I'm appreciating everything about it right now, from the bed that gets magically made every morning to the lack of laundry I have to do to MTV to my constant supply of mooncakes. Have I mentioned that I love love love mooncakes? I have been guzzling them down for about 2 weeks straight. Lotus paste rocks, so what if its all sugar and oil. Karoake last night was fun, after shedding my inhibitions, we were singing all the sad old love songs. No surprise that the 5 of us are totally single huh? Seems like my tank is never full cos I chucked down several curry puffs and chocolate to boot. But its good cos I've currently got the gym bug. Which means I'm going to hit LA Fitness the moment I get into London. Say bye bye to my spare tyres. More rambling to come later. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I've been a brat. I'm sorry. But sometimes I can't control my temper and thats bugging me. It flares up oh-so-often, more often than not, I've recently come to realise. Less than 24 hours and its bye bye home so I'm appreciating everything about it right now, from the bed that gets magically made every morning to the lack of laundry I have to do to MTV to my constant supply of mooncakes. Have I mentioned that I love love love mooncakes? I have been guzzling them down for about 2 weeks straight. Lotus paste rocks, so what if its all sugar and oil. Karoake last night was fun, after shedding my inhibitions, we were singing all the sad old love songs. No surprise that the 5 of us are totally single huh? Seems like my tank is never full cos I chucked down several curry puffs and chocolate to boot. But its good cos I've currently got the gym bug. Which means I'm going to hit LA Fitness the moment I get into London. Say bye bye to my spare tyres. More rambling to come later. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| This summer was the best one yet. I say that every year don't I? But hand on heart, this one was the bestest,funnest,most jam packed ones for a while. 3 months and counting of nothing remotely productive at all, going to LSE sure has its perks ie. 4 glorious long months of holiday (May 28th-October 6th...read and weep).
Even if I don't remember exact details, driving around in Bird's car with JayChouCD2Track3 pretty much sums it up. My perfect lazy Summer song. Travelling round Spain with my bestest girls shopping it up at the mucho grande Mangos and lazing around in the afternoons sipping on Sangria. Bonding with my sister over designer window shopping and Lizzie McGuire. Travelling with the family and our huge ass eating binges sampling the local cuisine. Alexis and Starbucks going talking about anything and everything. Frantic text messaging sessions which has led to my phone bill being at an all time high of over RM1K. Late night ICQ chats. Foosball in Breakers. Bringing the tourists (BrendaVonDom) all around this dinky city I call home, eating good food, taking mucho photographs and having an excuse to stay out all day. The 3 day weekend in Langkawi frolicking in the pool and buzzing at the hotel lounge. Hanging out at friend's houses playing PS2 and oohing and aahing over their RB-ness (heh). Clubbing in Singapore with the twiglets. My one and only venture to Nouvo this entire holiday. Bar Med was definitely a highlight. Bra shopping with Sister Lim which has led me to have a super sexy lingerie selection with no one to show it off to.
And the list goes on.
I'm dreading the flight back, how many times have I said this? Procastinating with the packing because seeing my room empty out, my sofa free from the piles of clothes, table free from cluttered makeup makes me oh so sad. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 03:46 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/smileys/hot.gif) hot |
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| | Finding Nemo. I loved it. Everything about it was great. The animation, the voices, the storyline, the lines. Bruce was cute, so was the starfish....Next on my to watch list, Sinbad. I have declared today cartoon day. In the past 2 days, I've managed to fit in Alex and Emma(crap!), Hollywood Homicide(lame!) and Finding Nemo around my sleeping schedule. Last night, I had dinner with C, then went over to his house where WY and B came over and drank wine(no more alcohol for the weekend for me) and banana/orange/yoghurt ice blended smoothies=yummy while talking by the pool (RB RB RB!) and then over to my place to watch movies and talk. No slumber party so I watched half of The Hulk which sucked big time. Today is family day, so I'm off to dinner with my parents. I have to fit the gym somewhere but I'm way too lazy. Been back in KL for less than a week but it seems like forever! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Stephen Speaks-Passenger Seat | | Time: | 07:56 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/smileys/surprised.gif) awake |
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| | Its before 8am and I'm wide awake and I didn't even need an alarm to get me out of bed. This always happens when I'm excited or worried about something and my body clock just clicks. Yesterday, I spent the entire day in pyjamas watching Season 2 of 24 and random episodes of Dawsons Creek followed by my all time favourite movie Face Off and Slackers. I think I'm going blind. Didn't budge from bed except to do my laundry (yes I finally did it!) and order greasy fried chickent takeout. Fried chicken, hot wings and fries for lunch AND dinner. No wonder I have a sore throat coming on. The only thing that was missing was a big fricking tub of ice cream. But now I feel all gross and slobby so I'm definitely heading out for retail therapy. Going to start with washing the greasepot that is my hair. Time for some pampering. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Guns n Roses-November Rain | | Time: | 09:59 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/smileys/sad.gif) morose |
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| I talked to my parents last night. And I miss them. I miss everything about home. Dont you think 6 months is way too long to be away? I do. I miss my big bed and snoozing in front of satellite tv. Channel surfing. I miss the way I dont have to put on 35802785 layers of clothing before heading out. I miss shopping malls where everything you want is in one building. I miss sitting outside in the sunshine and people watching and catching up on stories. I miss cheap movie tickets. I miss the foood, ooh the glorious food. I miss sitting by the roadside at night having a couple of drinks and playing stupid games. Sure London life is great and all but its time to go home.
And I'm off to the library to cram some more Law babble in. *bleh* | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Blue-Best in Me | | Subject: | Less than 24 hours to go.... | | Time: | 05:45 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/smileys/worried.gif) worried |
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| ....and I'll have found out my A level results. If I dont get ABB,I'm screwed. I dont really give a sh!t what I get for Economics, even though it'll be difficult to act all nonchalant when the person on the other line goes 'you've got an E, E for elephant'. I dont even know what I'm doing online again. Just needed to vent. Started watching Amelie this morning and I dont know, just got bored even though it was pretty funny and the cinematography was beautiful. Crawled back into bed and have just woken up, I blame this whole lethargic phase on my period. I'm also pretty upset at the fact that I've broken out in my allergies again and its gotton pretty bad. My left arm is covered in bumps as with my right knee and its not a pretty sight. I should really stop with the vodka but it's Kk's last night in Malaysia tonight so yup more photo taking.
Once again, I cant believe this.is.it. Tomorrow. It sounds so final. S totally forgot that August 15th was this week, hence her total shock when I informed her that yes it is tomorrow and yes we are screwed. Something tells me I'm in need of some retail therapy. I need new jeans damnit! Guess happens to have an amazing sale with up to 70% off and the jeans all look real good. Too bad the only sizes they have left are size 24. I was a 24 when I was 10 or something. Damn this country and the twiglets that belong here! | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Badly Drawn Boy | | Time: | 09:23 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/smileys/thoughtful.gif) creative |
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| Can you believe we finished a 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle? Yep we did. Actually, I didnt cos I passed out from sheer exhaustion. Woke up to much squealing and photo taking of the completed puzzle only to find out that this morning, the maid thought it was rubbish and completely dismantled the entire puzzle. I still havent found the courage to tell my friends where our hard work went. oops.
Met the girls for lunch and finally developed my film of Leavers Ball photos. =D Geez why didnt anyone tell me my tummy looked that big in that skirt? Anyhow, my camera is fucked up which means my photo taking has been put on hold. ah well. Went to town for some tourist action where we painted some more 'batik'. Came home and I've just come back from a family dinner where much crab and fried chicken was eaten. 0of I feel very sick indeedy.
Time for me to catch up on my tv. Since I've come home, I havent had the time to actually sit at home and watch my VCDs. Think I need to catch up on my movies man! All I do every night if I dont see my friends is talk on the phone till 4/5 in the morning and pass out after. I love my fat arse laziness.
Hope everyones having fun. Wednesday tomorrow=Ladies Night! We know what that means.....xx | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | J Lo-Alive | | Subject: | bye! | | Time: | 07:05 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/smileys/stressed.gif) rushed |
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| Well this is probably going to be my last update for a week and a bit cos I'm off to France on Saturday. Summer holidays officially begin tomorrow with the end of these freaking A levels and then its off to London for the night =D
Thought this moment would never come but now that its here, theres just too much to do to actually slow down and think about how I'm actually leaving for good. I'm leaving behind some of the closest people to me but I guess that doesnt mean we'll ever lose touch. Things will just be different...=/ Having to say goodbye makes me so sad. Along with that, I have to pack up my entire bedroom and fit it into 2 suitcases and 2 carry ons. Is that even possible? My room looks like a war zone at the moment.
Anyway, I have to get on with the packing and some very very last minute revision for tomorrow's Economics exam. fuck! In the meantime, hope you guys have a good week. I have high expectations for Paris, it better be good! Looking forward to the shopping, the good food, flea markets, DisneyLand and Walt Disney Studios, the sightseeing, getting a little culture, chocolate eating and just having fun. De-stress from the shit of the past month.
p.s And I want to forget about the male species for this week.Just spending time with my girls is good enough for me...(just for this week though sorry! =D) | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Norah Jones-Come away with me | | Subject: | wow | | Time: | 08:26 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/smileys/smile.gif) content |
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| If this is what coming close to actually finishing my exams feels like, I wonder how I'll be feeling this Friday afternoon! I cant describe it but I feel oh so good and just plain happy =D Better not speak too soon cos I've still got 2 to go and they aren't exactly plain sailing but for now, I'm all smiles.
The Politics exams this morning was a shock to say the least. Bollocked my way through both papers and by the end of it I was just so damn happy it was over that I didn't think about how badly/how little I had written. What mattered was that it was over...Came straight back to the house and indulged in some much missed internet surfing, something I'd sorely missed out on this weekend due to 'intensive studying'. I am such a net freak I really am.
In the afternoon, went over to see ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) melvrs and mutantstar, and it seemed like I hadnt seen them in freaking ages!!!About 3 days to be exact =D Checked out M's prom dress and it is so so nice, she is one skinny bitch! =D Indulged in some shopping in the afternoon, tried to cheer E up after an apparently horrific Maths Paper.
All in all a nice afternoon out complete with a pastrami sandwich from Munchies and mango and apple juice from M&S. Ended up spending about £70. Oh god how guilty do I feel? But hey retail therapy I say! Shopping list included
->CDs:- About a Boy soundtrack, Norah Jones-Come away with me
->Underwear (not like you needed to know but it took me ages to settle on a ten pack)
->Pair of comfy Gap sandals on sale
->Shared Mib's bday present..a really nice England No.7 zip up in St Georges colours. A bit late seeing as football fever is going to die down but it was soooooo nice.
All I need now is an outfit for Speech day. I'm going to break out of my trouser and jean mould and actually look for a skirt or a dress to wear. Figure its a special occassion and what the heck, lets flash my pale ass legs to the world! Heres to hoping I find an outfit in Paris...
Geez enough shit from me for today. Going to do some laundry and clean out the rest of my room before getting some cake downstairs. *burp* | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Elvis v JXL-A little less Conversation | | Subject: | Final countdown.... | | Time: | 06:56 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/smileys/geeky.gif) geeky |
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| Five days to go till France 2002 girls!! yvonne135 and melvrs,its going to fucking rock!
But wait!!
First, I'll have to go through 3 tedious Politics exams and one big motherfucker of an Economics exam on Friday. Then its off to London to pack and just generally be merry and party!! =D After a week in France, back for Leavers ball and such before making it back to London the next day, E's early 18th bday meal on Monday and then its home sweet home July 9th.
I dont care, whatever it takes, this Summer is going to gooooooood!
ok stop daydreaming lard ass, back to work work work! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Mel, thank you so much for the postcards today. They were funny and made me feel much much better so thank you again...;) Love the g-string one hoho!
Btw, I got a reply today. yay! I am a loser, 'welcome to loser....' *hand actions* | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | yea!! | | Time: | 11:47 pm |
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| Thats me trying to psyche myself up for the most butt numbingly boring 2 1/2 hours of my life (well year so far) tomorrow.
For the past few months, I've been feeling increasingly insecure about myself. Maybe I dont let it on that much(or do I?) but I have been having doubts about a lot of things. But today. I've realised something and I just wanted to say that I am over it(well trying). So sick of feeling sorry for myself, constantly bitching and whining and being a moody cow. I dont want this shit in my life anymore. It made me so depressed and I couldnt talk to anyone about it, well some, but I needed to get this out of my system. arrrgh! no amount of screaming and tear out hair frustration has managed to solve the problem so I figure fuck it, just forget about it.
Just a thought.
Back to Kennedy and policies on Vietnam 1961-3. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Frank Sinatra | | Subject: | Forgot to mention this..... | | Time: | 11:47 pm | | Current Mood: | amused |
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| I made a bet the other day with melvrs which that girl is so going to lose. She is going to regret ever making this bet with me, cos according to her, its a win-win situation for me whatever the outcome is..and I believe her. hoho. Plus, its me thats got control of this whole situation, shes helpless man! God I love this!! Plus she'll never have to know, not that I would lie to her, its a gentleman's bet and I'm not a sore loser ;)
So baby, come October 2002, you and me are heading to Gordon Ramseys London (no house wine for this girl Moet & Chandon please), unlimited drinks at the Met Bar and a room at the Hilton for the night alrighty?
Hey no backing out..
er if I lose, terms and conditions might change sorry. I apologise in advance. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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